No Deeper Pain

I love my kids. When they were little, they came with me everywhere. Now when I go to bed, I don’t always know where they’re at. Sometimes, I think about an endless eternity without just one of them and there is no deeper pain for me to contemplate.  I’ve spent many nights in anguish and tears wondering where they will go when they die. I can’t bear the thought of any of them in hell and I would change places with them if I could. 

It’s easier for me to think that God really wants to save them, if they would just realize how much He loves them. Then I remember where I was and that no one seeks after God, no not even one. Had He not had an interest in me first, I would never have come to Him.

Even so, I understand that unless He wants to save my children, they will never be saved. He is the One who they have sinned against and offended.  So, He alone shall decide if He will pardon them.  He must initiate an interest in them, because they will never have an interest in Him.

I have great hope that He will, since He is a long-suffering God showing mercy to thousands and demonstrating His great love for sinners by dying on the cross.  

I have no right to plead for their salvation except that He would show them mercy and kindness for His own sake.  And that He would grant them repentance and faith to believe in His dear Son, who died for sinners among whom they most certainly qualify.

I know you desire the best for your children, and this overshadows everything else you do in this life. Even now, as you grow older it seems that nothing has changed.  I feel and share your burden. Don’t give up. God has not changed, and He still hears your prayers for them.