Fear is Not My Portion
In 2020, the world paused. Life as we knew it shifted overnight. The outbreak of the COVID-19 virus brought with it a wave of uncertainty, and with that uncertainty came fear. For the first time, many of us were forced into isolation, away from the comfort of friends, family, routines, and familiarity. As an extrovert, this change rocked me to my core. I draw energy and strength from community, conversation, and presence, but suddenly, silence and solitude were all around me.
Working remotely while navigating my daughters’ virtual learning added a layer of pressure I hadn’t prepared for. One of my girls was excelling; the other was struggling. And in the middle of it all, I had to be the strong one—the steady one. But inwardly, I wrestled with anxiety, overwhelmed by the weight of trying to hold it all together and the fear of the unknown, especially for the health and safety of those I love most.
Then one day, God gently reminded me of a truth I had read many times but now needed to fully embrace: Fear is not from Me.
That was the turning point.
God did not give me fear. He gave me power—the strength to lead and to endure. He gave me love—for myself, for my daughters, and even for those I couldn’t be physically near. And He gave me a sound mind—the clarity to think, to pray, to breathe, and to make wise decisions, even in chaos.
As the days passed, I began to shift my focus. Instead of magnifying what was uncertain, I magnified what was unchanging: God's presence. His grace showed up in our little moments—Zoom calls with friends, game nights at home, quiet prayers before sunrise. The fear that once overwhelmed me became a tool that God used to draw me closer to Him.
Through the lens of faith, I found peace. My home became a sanctuary, not just a place of shelter. My heart found rest—not in everything being perfect, but in knowing the One who is.
Question for Reflection:
Where are you still allowing fear to speak louder than faith? Ask the Lord to help you reclaim your peace and to remind you that fear is not your portion—His power, His love, and His sound mind are.
